It's midnight.. I just can't sleep.. life, what an adventure..

I came across this post that I had never published.. Still the thoughts of my heart. It is from July 11, 2015..

So it's been awhile since I have blogged.. and yes I know, it is after midnight and I am exhausted after being in Canada for 10 days and not sleeping as much as I should have while I was there.. but what can I say?! What is sleep, when your fiance and you are trying to catch up with each other after being thousands of miles apart for 6 weeks and in different countries.. 

I am in awe tonight.. my mind swirling in so many different directions.. so many thoughts and emotions.. so much passion and excitement.. so much unknown and some fear too.. "Jesus, will you calm my heart? I so want to be in Your will and do what You have called me to do. I want to go where you call me to go and stay when you tell me to stay.. 

As some of you may know, Ridge and I are ENGAGED!! Whoo hoo!! :) 

The center piece to the picnic Ridge planned the night he asked me to marry him..
Gerber daisies.. my favorite!! :) 

 We are getting married and then heading to Mexico about 6 weeks later. It is crazy. It is sometimes overwhelming. It is exciting. It is where God has clearly called us right now. Some people tell us we are dumb because marriage is hard and we should not be jumping into missions like this so quickly, but learn how to be married and then do something like this.. and maybe we are dumb. haha ;) but when God calls you to do something, you do it. He doesn't always call us to understand something, but He does call us to obey. He doesn't promise an easy life, but He does promise to walk with us every step of the way. God doesn't promise us everything the world has to offer because that will never bring us true happiness.. He gives us Himself-which is the only thing that will ever fill us and give us true happiness and joy..

My favorite photo!! Love this man!

With Mexico, there is a lot of unknown.. and you know what? That is ok. It really is. We are not called to know everything and have a plan A, B and C. We are called to be obedient and trust God and His plan and timing. His ways are so much bigger and greater and better than my ways. 

Tonight I was thinking through everything and all the unknown for Mexico, and just a new chapter of life on being married.. and I came across this verse.. 

"He counts the stars and calls them all by name.." Psalm 147:4

Is that not just amazing?!?! Do you know how many stars there are?! Yeah, I guess I don't either! haha :) but I know there are alot!! and God knows how many and their names. So if God is big enough to know and do that, is He not big enough to carry us and handle our life? He is. I took so much encouragement in this truth and I hope you do to. 

What ways are you struggling at this time in your life? Are there circumstances that seem so big or impossible right now? Do you struggle with fear of the unknown like me? I encourage you to give it to Christ. He is more than able to help you and get you through it if you will only surrender and let Him walk with you.